Tuesday, April 28, 2015
Friday, April 24, 2015
It's finally Thursday! The day where I can sleep on his soft comfy bed beside him, but no!!!!! I'm up memorizing notes #why #fuck #procrastinatetoomuch
On another note, bought tickets to watch Avengers on Sat hehe it's an evening show so he won't fall asleep + it's right after my paper so it's kinda a celebration for finishing my first paper! Can't wait :-)
Thursday, April 23, 2015
I told my bf not to meet on Monday and when we met on Tuesday, he gave me his puppy eyes and told me he missed me very much HAHAHA and along the way to dinner he said a couple more times, it was so adorable :-) He held my hand with the kind of tightness that I always like him to. And of course the smelling hehehe x
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Overdue
our date at Privè
our KOI drink which he remembered i wanted 100% sugar now
first time seeing fajar wet market alive! it feels like i went through a portal to some place new. mcm alice in wonderland
airfryer!
my beautiful niece :)
too long never take pics
dinner time last night 21/4
Friday, April 17, 2015
HIM!!
well well, it's been a long time since i last blogged because life gets hectic you know hahaha! been really busy with assignments and now exams are on the way... stopped working because i could feel my emotions becoming worse? in my head, i keep thinking, exams are coming exams are coming x1000 and i had not started studying at all. i have since started, but not productive at all!!! the biggest worry about exams is not about the mugging but about not having enough time to finish it all. and I DON'T SEEM TO BE DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT. sighs and if i continue working, i bet it's gonna take a toll since the cupcakes don't sell out anymore and by the time i reach home it'll be like 9pm already? i can't concentrate and i do not have the motivation to study at all too... life's tough ha! please give me the strength to do this :(
we were supposed to watch ff6 today but he fell asleep at like 9pm??? what the hell, so annoyed :( i feel annoyed because of small little things like this because i feel very unfair? i've said it umpteen times, but we don't get to contact each other for 11 hours straight on most days, when he comes out for lunch, we get like half an hour (collated) talking time during the day. and his work ends mostly at 6:30pm, travelling home would take half an hour. eating dinner, blah... we only get like 4, or 5 hours top, at night...
so i feigned a tantrum because i always complain he's not watching the movie whenever we are. think: fiddling with phone etc. he just can't stay still. i suspect he has ADD HAHAHAHAHA kidding. so he ended up not sleeping "properly" by sleeping at the foot of the bed (which is near the table where i'm sitting), telling me he's just gonna take a nap. i refute him by saying "we all know it's not gonna be a nap, and you're just gonna sleep! so go and sleep properly!" he refused and ended up sleeping at the foot of the bed... he told me he's gonna "nap for 30 minutes" but of course i'm proven right again, because he ended up sleeping. i went to bathe and came back, stroking him and trying to wake him up to get him to sleep "properly" but he wouldn't budge. he was so tired he was in a deep sleep (yknow that kind when got bomb also cannot wake up one), i felt slightly bad for throwing that little tantrum because he was so tired. i will always let him sleep when it happens lah but at that point of time i just feel very sad cuz time kena cut short again?!!
on some days he gets out late and i'll be fine, waiting for him to come home but on some days i'll be very impatient? i don't get myself either. i think it's cuz of the exam period, the stress hormones and shit. some days i wish we had started earlier, because since we started, it's been lesser and lesser time. i feel like we didn't have any honeymoon period at all :( those days where he can fetch me from work, buy little snacks like bread/chocolate to encourage me for exams/for work breaks... oh ya he did buy me a stalk of sunflower for no reason recently though :p
i feel like even though i meet him everyday, time is just not enough and my family/friends (and maybe even him) don't understand that. we have a lifetime together but based on the past 16 months together, time just keeps getting lesser and lesser as we grow older??? what's to assure me that in the future we get to spend a lot of time together? and it sucks cuz i just like to be with him, because he makes me happy. although, it's very tough cuz i have to keep travelling to and fro... and the amount of stuff i have to carry every week is just... sighs. some old couples can not talk for the entire day or meet everyday and feel fine, but it's just not the case for me? :( i'm not explaining myself to anybody, just ranting, because nobody thinks like me at all! it's the reason why i always keep problems to myself because what's the use of telling people when they don't understand your pov at all?
mugging right now but procrastinating lah hahaha and i'm hungry but i don't want to eat cuz i look so fat T__T
Tldr my life problems are not serious, i'm just ranting hahaha
we were supposed to watch ff6 today but he fell asleep at like 9pm??? what the hell, so annoyed :( i feel annoyed because of small little things like this because i feel very unfair? i've said it umpteen times, but we don't get to contact each other for 11 hours straight on most days, when he comes out for lunch, we get like half an hour (collated) talking time during the day. and his work ends mostly at 6:30pm, travelling home would take half an hour. eating dinner, blah... we only get like 4, or 5 hours top, at night...
so i feigned a tantrum because i always complain he's not watching the movie whenever we are. think: fiddling with phone etc. he just can't stay still. i suspect he has ADD HAHAHAHAHA kidding. so he ended up not sleeping "properly" by sleeping at the foot of the bed (which is near the table where i'm sitting), telling me he's just gonna take a nap. i refute him by saying "we all know it's not gonna be a nap, and you're just gonna sleep! so go and sleep properly!" he refused and ended up sleeping at the foot of the bed... he told me he's gonna "nap for 30 minutes" but of course i'm proven right again, because he ended up sleeping. i went to bathe and came back, stroking him and trying to wake him up to get him to sleep "properly" but he wouldn't budge. he was so tired he was in a deep sleep (yknow that kind when got bomb also cannot wake up one), i felt slightly bad for throwing that little tantrum because he was so tired. i will always let him sleep when it happens lah but at that point of time i just feel very sad cuz time kena cut short again?!!
on some days he gets out late and i'll be fine, waiting for him to come home but on some days i'll be very impatient? i don't get myself either. i think it's cuz of the exam period, the stress hormones and shit. some days i wish we had started earlier, because since we started, it's been lesser and lesser time. i feel like we didn't have any honeymoon period at all :( those days where he can fetch me from work, buy little snacks like bread/chocolate to encourage me for exams/for work breaks... oh ya he did buy me a stalk of sunflower for no reason recently though :p
i feel like even though i meet him everyday, time is just not enough and my family/friends (and maybe even him) don't understand that. we have a lifetime together but based on the past 16 months together, time just keeps getting lesser and lesser as we grow older??? what's to assure me that in the future we get to spend a lot of time together? and it sucks cuz i just like to be with him, because he makes me happy. although, it's very tough cuz i have to keep travelling to and fro... and the amount of stuff i have to carry every week is just... sighs. some old couples can not talk for the entire day or meet everyday and feel fine, but it's just not the case for me? :( i'm not explaining myself to anybody, just ranting, because nobody thinks like me at all! it's the reason why i always keep problems to myself because what's the use of telling people when they don't understand your pov at all?
mugging right now but procrastinating lah hahaha and i'm hungry but i don't want to eat cuz i look so fat T__T
Tldr my life problems are not serious, i'm just ranting hahaha
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