Half (13/26)

Did most of the things on my to-do/buy list already! Can't wait to finish up this assignment :( I don't know why my appetite has been opening up lately? Like I feel hungry all the time omg........

Exams in a month's time...
Worried about my LFC assignment, damn just show the marks already T__T Don't tell me it's 0 please....
Need to start studying!!!

Both of us has been pretty occupied with assignments. It's tuesday... 3 more days to go :)

Weekend post updated on wildposy.wordpress.com (locked)

All I do is lay around
Two ears full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say
That I'm officially missing you...

Am i your risk to take?

(12/26)

We didn't take any pictures this weekend :( So no pictures... Met him on his nights out last wednesday, we met at town and ate Monster Curry!!! and had shaker fries as well!!! We walked around orchard before I sent him back to camp!

Then on friday... we met at his house and had maggi mee for dinner! (cuz I was craving for his maggi mee :p)

On saturday... we had brunch at home, and then prepared to leave to meet his MI clique!! We met them at Causeway point and had dinner together! (and NTUC ice cream) We also watched the movie Cafe.Waiting.Love (等一个人咖啡) IT'S FUCKING GOOD!!!!!!! It's so funny that I kept hitting my boyfriend's arm when I laughed. LOL!!!!! Feel like rewatching it again... I actually teared at one part HAHAHA it's damn good, the best movie ever this year!!! It was a pretty late movie and we reached home only at 1am :( Ate a bit, cut his toenails and slept at 2am.

On sunday, we both woke up early because we wanted to go Bugis to find my brother's belated birthday present! We travelled to Bugis and walked a few places to find the present! After we got the present, we went home, and then it was time to book in :(

It wasn't a bad week, but I guess not a very good one either? Since there are no pictures LOL!!! But I have a video of him "begging" me to dig his ear HAHAHA it makes me laugh every time I watch it, so hilarious!!! It makes me really happy :) but we forgot our goodbye hug this week cuz we were rushing to prepare for book in.

So.. That was the end of week 12! And I don't know when is the next time I can see him... :( This is honestly, a torture :( It's okay, I'm getting the hang of it. Still, can't wait for these few months to pass... We can do this, right?

At the brink

My life has been very happening lately. And not in a good way... I don't know how to express myself but all that is in my head is how bad of a daughter, girlfriend and friend I am. And after today, you can add bad student to the list. I don't know how to prioritise things and people. I don't want to speak much about my life here and would probably be better if it is left unsaid. Today, I went to check my exam schedule and realised I only have 1 month left till my exams. Crazy. That made me super stressed out already, and then the problems just keep piling. I need to study, I miss him, I can't see him, my friends are in need, I need to work, I need to find a job that pays CPF soon, I need to do assignment, I got exams, I worry about money, I worry about us, I worry about them, I feel sorry for this, I feel sorry for that. Even eating is a problem for me. Fuck. I was so upset that I couldn't find anything to eat at home that I cried. The fuck is wrong with me? I don't want to be a problem, and when my problem makes me a problem = fucked. I am about to explode :( My life is crazy right now.

Ahhh I feel so much better. Talking things out, and typing all these out too. This too, shall pass. Please pass soon!

Torn.

Lost

When I'm in a bad mood, I tend to pen down my thoughts. then sometimes I delete them when I feel better. These few days, I've been trying to keep myself happy by thinking happy/random thoughts. When I think of something sad, I'll think of something else or something random like reading the bus service number in my head opposite of my bus, or like just reading things aloud in my head. But I still feel lost sometimes.

School sucks

To be continued

You're the most perfect person to me...

ABLL (11/26)

This week passed too quickly... or should I say I didn't even have much time with him...

Friday he had some cohesion thingy so he booked out late + traveling time, when I met him it was already 8ish? Went to JEM to meet him and he surprised me with a sunflower. A real flower! I was so happy!! Plus he was in no. 3 wahhhhhh love x100000 

We had dinner at Laksania and talked a little over there. So loved when he sayang me so much, telling me all the sweet things and giving me that sunflower. I really love receiving flowers XD

The next day he had to wake up early for some zzzz event, and I had to spend the morning without him :( No snores no cuddles :( But we met after that at bugis with his parents for temples visiting because I wanted to visit temple for quite some time, I just don't know why! Had to travel alone with his parents AWKSSS but the buses we took were so crowded so it wasn't actually that awkward lah... Anyway I drew a lot (抽签) and it was a good one! So happy :D Went to AMK after all the temples visiting to walk walk and have dinner at Canton Paradise!

Sunday we did nothing... and I just realised that we haven't went to eat the dessert that he promised me :( But also because of my brother2's impromptu birthday dinner.

By the length of this post... you can tell that this weekend was pretty short... Time just went by so quickly... 

Sad

-

心真的好酸好痛好痛

Aching

My hell week is over - rushed 2 assignments and studied for 1 test. I studied for 10 hours straight yesterday! I didn't know I had that in me HAHAHA and I skipped school today cuz I was so tired and aching all over... Took a nap and woke up from a bad dream and headache... Sighs I hope today is gonna turn better :(

Staycation/9th (10/26)

Finally!!! It's my break time from doing assignment and I have been wanting to blog this! First of all, it's 10 weeks since he entered course! 2 digits liao! Friday was nothing exciting, just our usual dinner and me helping him to dig ears, cut nails, watch videos/movies~

Saturday was the real deal :p I waited all week for Saturday to come because I know how much he would love a staycation hehe WAIT ACTUALLY ISN'T THIS WHAT A BF SHOULD DO INSTEAD??? I felt like he deserved a break, so I asked my da sao to help me book since it's cheaper! :p We had our staycation at Hotel Michael last saturday! Many many thanks to my dasao + dayi for specially coming down to check in because the card was required :(

After we checked in, we changed out and went to the pool immediately hehe

More underwater shots of him :p so sweet right he did the heart thingy HAHAHA so adorbs!!!

After swimming, we both bathed and prepared to go out for dinner at Chili's Grill and Bar!

He ordered beer

And I ordered a Margarita

The bartender asked if we were above 18! Lol I guess we still look very young HAHAAA

We had pizza and some bites for dinner! It was really good :)

And after our dinner, he just took the camera and kept snapping away. I don't know if he's high, but I think he really was high. We snapped this picture standing on the concrete of the fountain (so malu????) Funny how he criticised my smile (before this pic), and end up he smile like that... 

He kept taking pictures so I posed for him :p

Beethoven HAHAHAHA

He continued taking pictures and I ended up doing a lot of silly faces just that I'm not posting them!

Oh, before we went back to our hotel, we went to Starbucks to get Mocha and a "cake" to celebrate our monthsary! Hahahaha

This picture was actually inspired by a wedding photo that I showed him...

It would be better if I weren't wearing a NP tee.... HAHAHAHA

It was a really relaxing staycation compared to the one we had at Fort Canning, which was creepy as hell because the roller blind went up by itself at 4am...

And so we checked out on Sunday afternoon... ate at Coastes for brunch and went home after that! By the time we reached home, we only had a few hours before he books in, so we used the time packing his bag and getting dinner! I then send him to camp as usual, and went home after that.

It feels like the weekend was so short :( but it was a really great one!

Can't wait till the next :)

It's gonna be a good day!

It's been a pretty rough week this week, but friday is here. Nothing is going to bring me down, and for some reason I feel happier! Nobody likes a Debbie Downer, I will keep trying to be positive. Can't wait to see my bf!

Princess

Stressed out by everything and the thought of listening to your covers once again struck me. So here I am, on your youtube page, listening to your covers and reading your captions. Like little sweet notes.

"Aud, this is the best I can try for this song. Do away with the guitar."

"Really sibei mafan to sing."

""Don't you worry about the distance, I'm right there if you get lonely, Give this song another listen, Close your eyes, Listen to my voice it's my disguise, I'm by your side.""

"Audrey."

"Happy 2nd month my dear princess @linenxin! I will always be "still into you" no matter how many days we've been tgt and no matter how worst our nights get! You're worth it~ I love you! ♡ "

"Gf wanted this song. Here it is~ difficult song to sing... Ugh."

"It's been long since I did a cover! And since my girl is into this song recently, here is my rendition of the oldie, Hey Jude! Hope you enjoy!

Hope you love it, my love."

So many thoughts

but I'm keeping mum.

That feeling when your heart shatters to a  million pieces. I don't know if it's the pain or sadness that's overwhelming. So overwhelming it makes me nauseated. I feel so sick.

First nights out

My bf had his first nights out on monday! Went to meet him in town for Ramen hehe not a fan of ramen but it tasted not bad! We went to Tampopo at Ngee Ann City, and the service was good too! I like good service :)

I miss him everyday... Why :(

Can't wait till I see him again...

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