inferior

why am i less important than other people?
i am always less important.
less clever
less useful
less pretty
less skinny

i am the dead cupcake :(

2012 in a summary

Went to bali
Took off my braces
Lost weight
Gain back weight :(
Internship at Savills
BIGBANG alive tour!
1st anniversary with Twelve Cupcakes
Brother's wedding
2NE1 New Evolution tour
X'mas eve gathering with the 6 girlfriends

appreciation post!!!

I would like to dedicate this post............








to my macbook!!!!
who have been with me for 3 years now
and still working fine!!!! even though i dropped it once (cries)
and died on me once (didn't really die cuz after awhile it was able to turn on, i removed the Windows in my mac and it's all good)
battery lasts about 2 hours (when i say 2 hours, it's 2 hours, not like some crappy laptops haha)

even though i can't play games or watch movies on funshion (cries again) i am happy with my macbook!
however, i can't wait for it to die so i can get a macbook pro (hahahaha) this macbook too heavy lah but macbook, don't let me bring you down, you can live for as long as you want to! because you're gonna be an antique next time (Apple not gonna produce macbook(original) again)

i love my macbook~

ok i'm just too bored studying for REI common test..........

In bed

Boring day... 2nd paper of the week and left with 2 more papers to go and my 2 weeks term break will be here!!!!! Can't wait for x'mas so i can meet my girls! Also can't wait to get back to work!!!

Speaking of the new girls, some really jialat... Zzz

I wna be pescetarian

121201

2012 has been a great year!

because i got to watch BIGBANG and 2NE1 LIVE!!!!!
even though i regret not going for 2NE1 moshpit sobs

THANKS TO TINGXUN i got passes for their soundcheck..........
and CL in shorts and an oversize shirt omg

the girls were fabulous it was so good hearing them live.
i didn't take any pictures T__T

CL DJ-ing was so dopeeeeee omg and headbanging
Minzy's vocals and moves........
AND I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT DARA SPOKE DAMN GOOD ENGLISH?!?!?!?!?! it was so good and fluent cannot believeee

i sobbed during bom's solo walao?? i never even cry at BIGBANG's concert lor??
the song was just too sad..... or she just sing until very sad
it was funny cuz jerms and i started sobbing during the same song

regret going for seated cuz of the guy beside me...... he was like ._. all the way, obviously he wasn't here for 2NE1 but to accompany his gf. so spoil mood!!!!!!

and what else can i say about SG Blackjacks? only a few.... the white sea was an ultimate fail
when will Singapore ever have a proper sea.............. and the moshpit had a BIG HOLE i feel so sad :(

i despise ppl/boys/men who support girl groups just cuz of their looks.
support real talent please??!

30 Nov 2012

This marks the 1st year of being a Twelve Cupcakes girl! I've been working for a year now. I have never stick to a part time job for so long before hahaha.

A lot of things have changed in the past year. I could still vividly remember the first day of work. Roz, Ivy, Atika, Noreen and Junwei were in the kitchen. But now we're everywhere!

Many people left and many joined as well. The feeling is different but we are still one big twelvies family :)

Many ups and downs but we still stick around. Thank you, Twelve Cupcakes, for the great opportunity to learn and experience :)

X

Suddenly i feel like life is so short. In the past, i always thought that people who committed suicide are stupid, now i think they are quite brave. The uncertainty of what follows after death kinda scares me.

Life is so fragile. It is so... very fragile.

I need to learn how to treasure... Family. Friends. Myself.

Inception

I dreamt last night during my 4hrs sleep. I think i woke up 2 times from that dream....

I died in that dream. But it was in the dream of a dream! I rmb i was still in the house and i saw my brothers lol. (Idk how i died though) but yeah i wanted them to know i was there. I was sitting on the chair near the glass door and was just closing the glass door. They were flabbergasted.

Bro2 said "it's ok, she wants to be here"

November: New beginning

Another start of the month!

I've finished reading two books in October: Norwegian Wood and The Little Prince.

Both are easy reads and I loooove Norwegian Wood, best book I've ever read! I think I finished it in less than a week. Haha.

Been going to school and work... whenever I can.

Nothing much has been going on with my life though.

Mundane and boring. As usual.

And I've been spending my money on the stupidest things!!!! I'm so angry and annoyed with myself. I need to start controlling and THINK about what I'm gonna buy. I'm seriously just spending money impetuously. Sighs.

x

There's so much going on in my head and I can't churn out the right words to say it all.

I'm just happy that I still have my family and friends around with me.

Wished I had learn to appreciate them earlier. Tonight I'm thankful.

Internship at Savills

七个星期。
不长也不短。。

虽然几乎每天对着电脑，有一些时候有机会可以去看一些示范单位，可是也有学到一些东西 ：）

又再认识人。。
有再认识不同各样的人。。

这七个星期，过得很愉快！
最想要感谢的是其他九位实习生。
如果是我一个人的话，一定过的很辛苦！

有时候，我们会在上班前，集合在一个地方。。
一起吃午餐，一起休息，一起调度， 一起下班！
特别留念的地方是 Starbucks，Mr Teh Tarik Cartel，Pantry， Lounge Room。。。

第一天。跟他们一点也不熟！除了Esmond以外！

 我真的太幸运！有九个实习生还好，我还有一位同学和我 一样部门！Dinah！！

 出去调度的时候 ：）

美好的回忆！
那些年我们一起实习的日子！！！☺

Dream

Rent a cosy shop. Paint it baby pink. Cutesy vintage fittings and furnitures. Beanbags. Chalkboard menu. Sell pastries and sandwiches. Or maybe more. ALL shall be low-fat. Tea/Coffee to go along. Cute Latte art. Build a shelf. (Read more books) Put in my favourite books. Card games for rent. Or maybe build a study corner.

Sounds like a good tea break venue~

To be continued...

瑞春点心餐厅

went to Swee Choon Dim/Tim Sum for dinner last week with bi! we ordered Chee Cheong Fun, Shanghai Xiao Long Bao, Fried Golden Doufu, Salted Egg Yolk Custard Bun, Siew Mai, Beancurd Prawn Roll and Fried Wanton! damn delish!!!!! + quality time with priscilla tan jia jia.

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Closed on Tuesdays

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Mummy is coming for you!
See you soon ♡☺

July baby

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

peace

these thoughts are slowly killing me
eating me inside out
i wish they stop

i can hardly breathe
someday i'll vanish into thin air

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so much negativity

Missing you

BIGBANG WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS

beautifully captured pictures of these flawless beings
pictures are not mine

it's withdrawal symptoms guys
give me time :(

BIGBANG ALIVE TOUR D1

28 September 2012. Probably the best day of my life.

I will try to cut it short because it will definitely be a long post.

Woke up at 7am and reached Singapore Indoor Stadium at 9am. The train was unbelievably packed on that day and I think that it was because of all the fans going there early to queue. Yeah, like me.

Had our Mcd's breakfast. Anyway, the torrid heat almost killed us. We drank lots of soda but we still felt damn thirsty plus we were not allowed to get out of the queue after 4pm so we stopped drinking at 3plus. When they were rehearsing, we got to peep through the side of a glass door because the canopy was somehow tilted. I got to see this skinny build in a grey singlet, rehearsing. Kwon Ji Yong~~~

We went in and got ourselves first row at the left side of the extended stage where the steps were. I didn't know it was the best spot ever. You will know why in a while. Hehe. Waited for a while and about 7ish, the show started........

From my spot I couldn't really see them because there were so many heads and lightsticks, I could only rely on the screen. :(

The set list for Alive Tour Singapore 2012 Day 1:
Alive (Intro)
Tonight
Hands Up
Fantastic Baby
How Gee
Stupid Liar

-"DTV" TALK-

Knock Out
High High
Strong Baby
What Can I Do
Gara Gara Go
Number 1
Cafe
Crayon
One of a Kind
Bad Boy
Blue
Love Song
Monster
Feeling
Look Only At Me
Wedding Dress
Wings
Haru Haru

-TALK-

Lie
Last Farewell
Heaven (Encore)
Bad Boy (Encore)
Fantastic Baby (Encore)
Feeling (Encore)

I did my fan chants.. but the music was blasting I doubt anybody can hear it. I sang along too because the rest was singing along and it was pretty loud. I think any idol would be happy if their fans know each and every word of their songs right?

At our spot.
Daesung came over quite a number of times. He smiled and waved a lot. That smiling angel is so precious.

Taeyang came over and danced in front of us!!! At the end we all know he was giving out his towel but he came down, paused in front of us and walked away!!!!!! I guess it's fairer for those who weren't at the steps.

T.O.P came over too but he only smiled and waved a bit. He went to the center, sat there and sing for damn long. I am forever unlucky getting his fan service. Me being a T.O.P stan :( But last night, I have another kind of love for him. Admiration. His hand was bandaged but he danced along and moved his hand as much as he could. He wanted to remove his jacket but he couldn't use his right hand so he used his teeth to remove the left sleeve. I hope his hand recovers soon :(

Seungri came over a few times and well, danced and smiled but not to our spot. But I could see him clearly.

GDragon. Kwon Ji Yong.
Ji Yong came over to our spot like 10000000 times. I was dying. In fact, I can die without any regrets now. He smiled. He danced. I love his blue and pink backcombed hair. I love him in his Chrome hearts singlet. I saw him pose for a camera. He did the "chu~" and gave a victory sign ((((SO PRECIOUS))) At the encore, he walked down the steps..... reached out his hand right in front of me. EVERYBODY AROUND ME GRABBED HIS HAND. So I did too, I held his wrist and he gave a smirk. Everybody was screaminggggg and then he started to give low-fives from the left side and everybody reached out their hands. I GOT THE FREAKING LOW FIVE.

BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!
CRIES A WATERFALL

I felt that the fans weren't very nice though... as in i didn't hear chants when they were supposed to. Like the encore stage. Nobody shouted encore???? Making it seem like we didn't want any encore performances. But BIGBANG still did the encore performances for us. They never fail. They are the best ♡.

Queueing for 10 hours was worth it, because it's for BIGBANG and I would gladly do it again :)

what's that called...?

can't find myself tweeting freely

can't find the damn word to describe what i wanna say so i decided not to tweet instead
what happened to the tweet whore audrey

solitary

i wanna be isolated.
i don't wanna talk to anyone.
leave me alone everyone. seems like everyone is doing it already though.

compulsory mandatory need

9 days fruit diet + 10 days lemonade diet

you think can??
i think i'm not motivated enough...
but i can't start on my lemonade diet just yet

wait. 8 days fruit diet because i'm predicting a birthday dinner for bro2 on sunday
sigh weight conscious again. haven't been stepping on the weighing scale for a long long time because i'm afraid i'll be disappointed and cranky and depressed LOL

i'll wait till i look skinny enough (to myself) to step on the scale again.
i NEED to do this...

breeze

2 weeks of internship - GONE. 5 weeks left! very fast leh

after 12 torturing days of not working at twelve cupcakes, i worked PM shift at Bugis Junction today!! i felt out of place and i didn't know what to do haha but thank goodness for the awesome colleagues! haha 2 new girls today and they are good and so fun to be with :) also got to see Gen and Atika today!! big fat hugsss

next week's schedule is out and i'm working at USQ next sat and sun!!! oh how i miss USQ~ with Yusri's ipod playing BIGBANG's songs all day long~~!! can't wait!! 20 more days to BIGBANG's concert!!!

monday is arriving and i'm glad i'll be sending out mails on monday like we did on friday hehe because i don't want to stay in the office!!! damn shiok

yst night i went to bed thinking, "how nice would it be if it rained tmr night" i love sleeping on rainy nights, i like hearing rain drops when i'm on my bed. i think it feels cozy and warm??? like it's raining and you are home and sheltered... makes me feel fortunate.

followed Weixiong's schedule for exercise every other day and i've been diligently going to hot yoga classes at Hom Yoga last week! haha but i'm gonna pause for a week when my period comes.... haha

gonna start on the diet soon but i hope i'll be able to last all 10 days!!! i need motivation...
good night!

visuals

My internship posting

My first batch of egg tarts which came out a little burnt as i wasn't watching over the oven, but it turned out great! As in there's no burnt taste~

My 3rd attempt at making a Pandan Chiffon cake. (First two attempts failed terribly)

I found out the reason why after i read the online recipe again and again and looking at their pictures when they were making it. I realise I didn't whisk my egg whites till stiff peak. Stiff peaks - you whisk and whisk until the egg whites are foamy and when you turn the bowl upside down, the egg whites stays there, because it's STIFF. LOL i must be illiterate.

So i ended up whisking my egg yolks and egg whites for a long long time as i only have hand whisks.

Guys it's time to buy me a hand mixer or a machine LOL i spent 1 hour +++ whisking the egg whites with the help of my brother.

And again, the Pandan cake was a little burnt. I was watching over the oven.... but shit happens you know. I tried playing with the oven - temperature and stuff (get to know more about my oven) You know what they say, every oven is different. Tried to turn up the heat because it wasn't browning and bam! 5 minutes later it's slightly burnt -_-

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Second batch of egg tarts on a different day! No more burnt egg tarts! HAHA

But the crust was so soft because i wanted more egg filling. I love baking egg tarts, they are so easy to make and so delishh yums!!! Shall try making fruit tarts soon ☺

Shall bake again soon!

This thursday perhaps! Trying a new flavour cupcake i saw online ☺

Maybe egg tarts too! Can bring to work on friday to give my colleagues TEEHEE

Can't wait for my papers to be over!!! 

Excuse my blackberry's poor quality camera....

CHANGING PHONE SOON ＼(o￣∇￣o)/ 

smiles

too many people complain that i'm overly depressed on my blog haha
i shall try to make my posts happier!

having papers tmr and thursday but
no
feel
to
study!!!!

till then, x

envy and jealousy

16 days since i last blogged but i have no memory of anything. because nothing significant happened i guess.

i had my first formal presentation for my Final Year Project and it was the first time i went through the slides and practised presenting for umpteen times trying to perfect it.

i had work too. the love i have for the Twelve Cupcakes team is unexplainable, for all my wonder colleagues, managers and bosses. it is the first job which i stayed on for so long. 8 months and counting! haha it is like a relationship lmaoooo anyway the counter girls are swapping outlets for another 3 months! i will be at Golden Shoe Car park but my internship is commencing on the 27th. i will be interning at Savills Residential Pte Ltd which is damnnn near Golden Shoe Car park i swear i will visit them everyday during my lunch break. ok maybe not, i think they will be sick of me. haa

i want to complain about customers!!!!!!! ahahhahaaha but i shall not. *Professional*

on a happier sadder note, my anger, my disappointment... it is still there... i don't know how to rid it but i want to. i don't want to feel like this.

there has been thoughts of leaving home... or studying overseas because i don't want to stay here. i always think it's sad when i cannot share anything with my parents or brothers. talking about this makes me really sad.

a perfect broken family. many days i just wished my family was close-knitted.

8ighth

August post
each and every day has been a torture.....
i think i've been depressed lately, or maybe for the past 8 months
i think i cry so much my eyes are becoming smaller, or maybe i'm just getting fatter
let's not go to the weight issue haha

Life is unfair

Life aside,
work has been good
but i have to wear jeans to work now
and i think my self esteem level has just hit rock bottom
i love wearing high waist shorts showing off my fat thighs
my fat thighs boost my self esteem
why jeans whyyy

watched some of my favourite youtube videos today
Nina
Christina Aguilera
all na na na one

good night

disappointed

my dad doesn't even rmb my bday..... don't even rmb how old i'm turning
can i even feel disappointed??

I SO FAT

SO FAT SO FAT SO FAT SO DAMN FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So depressed so disgusted
why am i so fattt!!!!!!!!! sognidNGDIGntdg DAMN IT
AFSI ARGHH!!!!! DAMN IT

ponder

went bowling for Twelve Cupcakes' 1st year anniversary! :-)
it was so much fun!!! but it could have been more fun if more people turned up!!!
Ivy, Eunice, Gen, Jia Hui, Delphine and many others didn't turn up!!! it wld be so much more fun!!!! Nevertheless, i had a lot of fun and really enjoyed the company of the Twelve Cupcakes team....

ya but just thankful for all the lovely colleagues i have. they are the main reason i am still here. anyway i have just decided to let this pass. this too shall pass haha!!!! lame

ANYWAY PHOTOS!!!!

bowling pics!!! hahaha only 2, the rest can go fb see!!!

feeling much better this month, didn't work that much, have got time to rest and all :-)
just hope the rest of the month will be good....

sigh yai yai good bye and good night

too much rest? hahaha

hi.... monday i had BRF presentation and i went home and slept from 5pm to 545am the next day haha due to the lack of sleep before the presentation....

then tuesday i had this army site visit.... then i went home

i wanted to do my footfall today supposedly but it rained in the morning so i'm doing it next week instead. i've been home for 3 days now i'm SO BORED!!!!

wished i could go to work instead of school, hai

life's not good,
wish july can get better
it's my birthday month!!!! but not very excited about it haha

caturday

NEED!!!!!!!!!!

i want to keep a munchkin/scottish fold or MUNCHKIN SCOTTISH FOLD
they are adorable to the maximum!!!! LOOK AT THEM CUTIES

i want cat
i want cat
i want catttttttttt
meowww~~~

extra20s

Collected my extra20s on friday! hehe it was torn at the top right hand corner but besides that, everything is perfect hehe!!!!

TODAY 25 JUNE I GOT MY BIGBANG ALIVE TOUR TICKET!!!!!!!!!!!
so stoked, can't wait to see my 5 fav boys :)

counting my blessings

counting my blessings during hard times...
i feel so much happier compared to yesterday! haha having severe moodswings i guess haha

priscilla told me that i'm very bad to mr tan because whenever he tries to like communicate  with me i just ignore him. not that i want to ignore him?? but his communicating = telling lame jokes haha and i'll be like literally can't be bothered to entertain him so i'll just give the "um, ok" look haha

HSM ppt due tmr
WISP due tuesday
BRF due next week
FOOTFALL to be done
Work tmr

wants to list the people i'm thankful for tonight, like i've done so on twitter.
it makes me feels A LOT better??? idk why too

people to be thankful for:

1. my parents, for always asking me to quit or work lesser because they know i'm tired
2. MALT, Mah Zhengyi, Lim Meiting and Toh Jinghui, for always cheering me up when i'm feeling depressed or emo or upset
3. Priscilla Tan Jia Jia, my beloved best friend who has always been there for me, my confidante ♡
4. classmates, especially Priscilla and Shi Ting (FYP mates) for always doing most of the work and compromising with my work schedule.
5. colleagues: team USQ, Steph bb, Eunice, Jia hui, Noreen, Sheralyn. for making my work so much more enjoyable. lovely colleagues. besides Team USQ, also colleagues who have made an impact in my life, Ivy, Atika, Chloe, Vivien, Joy, Hazel, Gen, Eudora, Sue Yee, Olivia and Judith!!
6. my fav fav fav OM, Mr Roz Wong, for always being so caring! Fellow Leo, fellow VIP, fellow Monkey!!!! hahaha

i think these are the people i will never forget..... :') love them to bits!

gotta do work now! actually i say break half an hr, but i break 1 hr liao......

+++

every single day i'm so stress
so damn stress!!!!!!!

cannot breathe anymore it's suffocating me :(
i have to work less days and less days = 1 day 1 week? that's so little :(
i rather work than school but school is more important right now

but NP is a damn shit school and all the (higher-ranking) teachers suck (in charge of FYP one)
they seriously wasted our time doing the questionnaire and end up not using it, now they want us to do footfall by 7july. do you think our lives only revolves around school and the damn FYP???

stop stop stop!!!!
too much negativity.
i need to be more positive and everything will work out.

breathe in~~~~~~~~~~
breathe out
let's take one step at a time....

1 more sem and 1 more term to go and i'm done.
keep it up audrey

effort

fail friend much????

i've been working if not doing school work.
totally been neglecting my girls
not making the effort to meet them.
july shall be a new start and i will plan my days better.

i'm fully booked for june.
how sad is that.....
6/8 with work
1/8 with school work
1/8 with birthday celebrations

i need to plan better
sibei no life


MY EYELIDS BEEN TWITCHING NON STOP
just now left now right ASOFMGODHNREDIHNTFH
maybe not enough sleep hahaha

tomorrow i have dental (to get my retainers) + project from 2.30pm to 6pm and birthday celebration + papa's day celebration tmr....

and BOYS... DON'T SCROLL ANY FURTHER......










my period haven't come??? it's been like 1 and a half month since my last period -____-
told my mum and she's like telling me off ever since and asking me to eat regularly.
haha ya i haven't been eating regularly been avoiding rice a lot like the staple foods

must be my irregular diet + stress causing this
it should have came but it's not here.
because i've been breaking out + my increasing appetite

dk what to do, haiya nvm!!!!

not over yet

2 months since school started
i can't wait till 10 months later
i want to graduate now
i hate poly........

so tired
byebye

hate

i don't fucking care how this is going to look on me
i fucking hate people who change plans last minute
YES i swore
but you guys fucking deserved it

dog days

hello readers, long time no see...

i am tired.
life has been hectic. tried to work as little as possible, but FYP is consuming most of my time now. i have no time, no life.

am a little afraid i might not be able to cope with school + work

work now requires one whole month of pre-planning. i really can't plan my days. i'm not a planner...

common tests are coming. next week. but thankfully i only have 2 papers and 1 of it is open-book 8)

i wish i didn't have to work for money. my parents will give/buy me whatever i want. hahaha. parents kept asking me not to work anymore but are they going to give me money??? no whaaaat then stop asking me to quit my job!

i am not even sad but i just feel like crying
wth am i depressed...??

HATE

getting sick of being fat

ARGH

be-u-tiful

i just thought this was amazingly beautiful. literally.
i could feel their love for each other when they dance!!!!
I LOVE IT!!

be who you are. never change for anyone:)

copycats

i don't like it when people get the same things as me.......... cannot stand it!!!

can't wait for this baby to arrive!!!!!!! woohoooooo

piece of shit

can't fucking explain how much i hate myself

fat

fat fat fat fat fat
everyday i see myself i think FAT FAT FAT ARGH
i don't want to be fat anymore
i hate myself for eating so much WHY DO I EAT

am i raging... i think my menses coming
one more week i think
it always happen.....
EAT + RAGE + PIMPLES
sigh life is not gooddddd
life is fat

deprivation

LOL new layout for composing post

yesterday i went to Toa Payoh for some FYP meeting at HDB HUB. i travelled all the way from Boon Lay because class ended at 11 and the meeting was at 4 -_- and the meeting was only half an hour wth -_-

then i had lunch/dinner with Pris and i went to Novena to find Steph and Hazel hehe. After which, i went to Orchard and shopped HAHA and i shopped for 2 hours!!!! i damn terrible i bought 3 shorts and 1 top lmao

i just realised that being in a different class as Xue Li means i have to get to the opposite side and take bus to Clementi alone.... i could also take the bus with Jeff??? but all different class!!!! so... i have been cabbing home because going home alone is so lonely sobs

but i cannot always cab home it's such a waste of money!!!!! ARGH MONEY ISSUES

hehe on a happier note ^_^ i bought my YSL wallet!!!! WITH MY OWN MONEYYYYY i am so proud of myself? hehe anyway school has been realllly boring and i've decided that i will pause for a year before i go to uni... i really hate studying it's useless.

am lacking a lot of sleep. damn deprived!!! i sleep everywhere it's so horrible i'm so busy and exhausted and... i wanna go out sigh ya ya

melancholy

feeling a bit pensive..?

1. school has reopened :( first day of school was so boring until can cry.....
2. am only see Xue Li for 2 days every week when we have lectures
3. can foresee that FYP is gonna be damn tiring and troublesome and everything bad
4. bb Joy is leaving twelve cupcakes... sighs i'm really very sad
5. a NSF passed away recently...

i went to facebook the NSF guy who passed away and i got to know that he was the life of the party. he just turned 21 a few days before he left the world. it got me thinking... why take away someone who has so much to look forward in life? someone who gives delight, joy and happiness to the people around him? it's so unfair

even though i don't know him in real life, it makes me sad.... i feel so sad for idk what reason that he's gone??? he's a stranger to me but irdk why i'm feeling this way

how i wish the ones taken away are the evildoers.... makes much more sense isn't it?

really, life is so unpredictable sigh ya ya that's why we shouldn't mull over something for long. life is not gonna last forever. that's why when we have cried a river, we should build a bridge and get over it

boohooo

went out with my baby girls to queensway today because we wanna do a new jersey for the 4 of us! :) hmm we decided to do a pullover as well!! i think the design is quite cute hehe can't wait!! ^_^

then i headed to town with bbtoh cuz i wanted to get my dr. martens! but i couldn't find one that i liked but i brought her to stereo instead and she bought her sennheiser earpiece muahaha. a good earpiece is essential! c'mon! you don't buy it today you will still buy a earpiece... SOME DAY!!!! and sennheiser is freaking good?! confirm can last very long :D

lol and today a guy approached us but it's kinda funny cuz he said "if you're feeling uncomfortable you can feel free to punch me in the face" LMAO i just laughed it off.

went to a&f cuz i miss my cutie but i couldn't find him :( he's not working today??? WHERE IS HE :( i miss himmm sobs haha my heart was beating damn fast before i enter a&f walao joke

but anyways... school's starting tomorrow and i'm not happy at all :( but it's half day and i've work in the afternoon! it sounds zzz but i'm kinda looking forward to go to work! i wanna go to work more than i wanna go to school!

hope tmr's gonna be good! :) nights!

specials

hi in a week i've spent $200 already. and all i did was to go to work....... HAHA

met up with toh, nat, pearl and the other girls to chill out at starbucks outside US today hehe

it's 2am now and i've not bathed.

i think i'm gonna sleep only at 3am. i'm so gonna regret this tomorrow morning!

but anyway tomorrow's specials at Twelve Cupcakes are Nutella and Longan. OMG THE NUTELLA IS DAMN GOOD SOBS

i want to promote the Nutella to everyyyy customer HAHA

friday the 13th

today i met the nicest cab driver in my whole entire life!!!!!!

i am such a lazy bum. i wanted to prepare at 230 but idk what i was doing and then i only changed and got out of the house at 315 thinking i could get a cab within 10 minutes but i was SO wrong.

it was scorching hot and the sun was burning me AND THERE WERE NO CABS AT ALL!!!! i then took the bus to 199 which took freaking long today??? i quickly walked to the taxi stand at the back of JP and there were no freaking cabs again zzZZ i left to go to the one at the front of jp and luckily enough, there were a few.

BUT

i had no cash so when the cab arrived, i asked if he accepted nets and he say he don't... i'm like WHYYYYY and there wasn't any cab waiting behind him and i was rushing because i was so late already.?!??! and i was like "er.... er...." cuz i wanted to tell him if i could withdraw money when i reach the place but i was like "er..." cuz i can't withdraw money when i reach US because i've to rush to work!!

he then told me to get in and i can transfer him the money later i'm like WOWWWW OMG YOU SERIOUS......... THEN THERE WAS A FREAKING JAM ZZzz wtf

in the end i was late for like freaking 20 minutes, that's freaking late i hate myself disnfingidfng

mr john fun!!! thank you so much T__T i've just transferred him the money at like 2am cuz i couldn't trf when i was at US and i totally forgot abt it when i reached home! thank God for ibanking!

bad friday wasn't that bad after all...

WOW FANTASTIC BABY

work with @hazelsim today!!! hehe sold out at 730pm :p

OMG damn madness i think i too nice hahaha next week i'm working 6 days but 2 half shifts... BUT STILL 6 DAYS??? WTF AM I THINKINGSSS brain dead already

my holidays. gone!!! just like that LMAO

idk if i want to visit my grandma tomorrow or next week instead.... i just feel like rotting at home?? but at home also nothing to do also no shows to watch... SO IDK LAH!!!!!

i wanna make new friends i damn sleepy lah finally it's been 4 hours since my last snack walao i can finally sleep!!! and finally sleep IN!!! i wanna sleep until noon, shall switch off my phone so NOBODY disturbs my beauty sleep!!!

so long~

GOOD friday

today a customer told me i've nice and cute braces HAHAHA!!!!

then a customer lost his wallet (PRADA WALLET) but a lady customer found it and returned it to us! the guy later came back and took back his wallet, i jokingly said "$10 fee" haha and he said "it's inside" we laughed and he went off, 10 minutes later, he came back with a box of ferrero rocher!!!! HAHAHAHA

omg today i ate a lot!!!!!!!!!! anyway 2 more hours till i can sleep! i shall bathe and play scramble hehe~~ work tmr!!!! lots of orders tmr....

getting better

48.9!

meh it's gonna increase tmr for sure! work was all good today at MW!! but cakes couldn't sell out.... left 5 dozens!!!

sorethroat is getting better after i bought this

it freaking works ok???? hahaha my ahma always buy this and my bro3 loved this sweet a lot (even though he's not sick? he just like to eat this)

today i saw an elderly on the train.... looking at her tired eyes, i was reminded of a question i asked... do old people ever get tired of life? and then after that, i thought of my grandmother. i shall visit her this sunday when i'm free! :-)

when i grow up and have a family i want to make sure my family is close-knitted, i don't want my kids to be like me and my family, we can't talk about stuff, we don't do things together.....

feel like i'm actually living a sad life

haha why i so emo

ok good bye! work at GS tmr again! because steph exchanged outlet with me! hmm... haven't been at US yet this week!!!! #rare

friends?

having sore throat right now... feels freaking terrible!!!!! i can't swallow saliva i have no appetite, my ear freaking hurts when i swallow saliva :-(

and one more thing that i've noticed is that my other friends show more concern towards me when i'm sick than my closer friends. am i putting this too bluntly? hmm... feel pretty disappointed with my friends some times?? i think they might have been disappointed in me too but we just kept mum about it.?? should i continue? ok nvm i don't wanna talk about it haha

so... work at Golden Shoe today! it was fine :-) always enjoy working with Hazel :-))) dental tmr at 2pm and work at 4pm! thanks to Sue Yee i'm able to go for my dental!!! i'm always forgetting my dental appointment because i don't have an organiser (at that time) now i have an organiser so forget-dental-appointments NO MORE!!!!! ^^

hmm hope i get better tmr!!! i don't want to lose my voice or have a worse sore throat!!! but i got a bad feeling that i'm gonna wake up with a worse sore throat sighs.... best combi already, menses + sore throat + headache

damn emo now

OH YA just wanna say thanks to those who showed concern?? i feel like i actually exist in your life. appreciate it very much :-)

april fools

went to Oriole Cafe at Somerset yst with Shi Ting, Xue Li, Jessie, Isabelle and Alex to celebrate Shi Ting's 21st birthday! it was a REALLY dark place.... haha had our dinner and cut the cakes there :-) don't feel like uploading the photos cuz not nice at all!!!! ugh the place is so dark i can't even take a proper clear picture....

anw . came!!!!!! i finally don't have to stress abt when it's coming already lol

work tmr at GS!!! can't wait!!! hehe always love to have Ivy and Atikah around ^^

gtfo march

hi!!!!!! it's the last day of march. actually i'm quite lethargic right now haha i'm just excited that it's the last day of march cuz MARCH IS A FREAKING BAD MONTH.

i worked like hell this month, put up with all the shit that came flying into my face -_- (not literally) met one freaking rude customer just today? totally spoilt my day and i cursed her to fall flat on her face!!!!! freaking rude lah?!?!?! you know i can't stand rude people the most zzzz

she wanted 4 cakes, so i packed the 1 single into a paper bag (so that it will be more stable) and then she's like "can you put the cakes into a plastic bag for me!?" DUH..? so i said "i will" and she went "can you hurry up? i'm in a rush" all the way frowning..... wtf?!?! in a rush then don't buy cupcakes lah.... i just wanted her cakes to be more "stable" so that it won't topple or slide off and this is what i get. why do people have to be so mean...... what is new right??

in other news, my paycheck is here~~~~~~ and i'm working 4.5 days next week.... i like to say 5 days lah but one of it is actually half shift but whatever.... HAHA idk if i want school to reopen so i'll work less or school not to reopen because i hate studying...

going tomb sweeping tomorrow as well as celebrate Shi Ting's birthday!!! sounds weird to combine the 2 events together because one is like... and the other is like..... mehss

SO GOOD FUCKING BYE MARCH i can't wait for April!!! hope it's gonna be better!!!!

haunted

what do some ppl want from me really?

1) you think i'll be so upset if it's the first time this happened?

2) if you wanna leave, go away and never come back

3) your r/s is not my problem

can these 3 people just seriously leave me alone.

stop haunting me

i'm ok. i don't need consolation.

good day

25 MARCH 2012

woke up around 12 ish and called Lao Ban at 1pm to reserve 20 bowls of Lao Ban at 2pm! and i got out of hse at 1.20pm but i couldn't find any cab......... LOL so i took a bus to JP and the queue at the taxi stand was :S :S :S i only manage to get on one at 2pm! the uncle was very nice. i spent $20 on the cab fare..... and then i went to get my 20 bowls which was $30 LOL i spend $50 in half an hour. cui

and then i cabbed down to Millenia Walk from Lao Ban, and surprised the MW ppl with lao ban!!! hehe gave away 9 to them :-) and practically had to carry 11 with me X__X helped out a bit at the store cuz i was there early! oh i was waiting for jerms to knock off cuz we have a dinner date hehe.

while i was there, i tried the new flavours that Jaime created..... it's sooooo goood ;_; especially the apple cinnamon and rose & raspberry it's really really good omg.

went to hk cafe with jerms after work to eat!!! hehe my first time there :S we ordered the French toast (freaking noms!!!!), curry rice and some minced pork vegetable rice??? all damn noms ;_; and we each had milk tea with grass jelly keke

ok look at my fat face....... didn't take more photos because i don't have hands to :-( next time i must pick a better date to buy lao ban!!!!

jerm knows me best omg i was telling her i spent $50 just to get lao ban and then she's like why are you spending so much... issit because i'm getting pay so i allow myself to spend money like free ;_; that's what i thought omg sighs i should stop spending money like free..... today i just cabbed to work sighs

and my boss damn nice hehe he wapp me to thank me for bringing lao ban for them!!! :-)

hmm anw.... it's coming to the end of march!!!! PAY PRZ COME TO ME NOW

25 march 2012 was a really good day :-)

BIGBANG can faster come SG~~~~ come nowwwwww

ALIVE

MY ALIVE ALBUMS hehehe

they are perfect!!!! i just opened to see how it looks like and now they are back in the plastic packaging because i don't want the metal to rust :-(

the posters damn ugly anyway haha don't know why my photos so blur sigh

SO PRETTY SO PRETTYYYY Ｏ(≧∇≦)Ｏ